Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Going to Hawaii!! :D

Sorry it's been so long since my last post.. It's been hectic here. However, I have wonderful news!

I GOT THE JOB IN HAWAII AT THE HAWAII VOLCANOES NATIONAL PARK!!! :D

KYAAAAAAAAA!!! \\(>o<)//

I'm to start there on September 4th- I'm leaving Dunnellon NEXT WEEK! I've been so busy trying to get ready, that it's been a bit crazy. Things are FINALLY coming together~ ^_^ I shall post more in the days to come! I just wanted to post a quick update since I haven't posted in so long. Take care ya'll! Thanks for all your support!

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!!

-Aria D Gaia

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Life is a Choice-

I firmly believe that everything that happens in life, all that you experience, everything you do.. is all a matter of choice. Right on down to your state of mind & how you feel. Everything is about perspective & one can choose which perspective they wish to have. This is why I have no patience for complainers & whiners. Whining & complaining does nothing to change the situation you are in and if you really didn't like it, you wouldn't stay there. Even including mental states.

Now I will admit that there are some things that you have absolutely no control over- One cannot choose their parents. One cannot choose their genetics. One cannot choose what others will do nor how the world will react to them. However, we CAN choose how we react to the world. We can choose whether or not to love our parents or to disown them. We can choose to alter our looks if we are not happy with the looks our genetics gave us. 

If you are not happy with something? Change it!
If you are not happy where you are? Leave!
If you are not happy with the way things are? Change them!

ALL THIS LIFE IS A MATTER OF CHOICE!

The only limitations you have is that of your own imagination & willingness to work towards your goal. Even a slave has a choice- They can choose to put up with it or they can choose to escape it. Even life & death are a choice. There is always a way to escape from any situation you may feel stuck in. You can always find a way out. Remaining where you are despite being unhappy is also a choice you make. To people who always complain but never do anything to change..? I say.. You chose to stay where you are. Stop bitching about it or do something to fix it. Your choice!

You know the old adage.. "You made your bed, now lie in it"~ I certainly believe this. We are never free of the consequences of our actions or choices we make. That is the only thing we cannot change. However, we can change how we feel about them and how we react to them. We can choose whether or not to let those consequences rule our lives or to accept them & rise above them. Even a pirate knows that the consequences of his actions are death if he gets caught.. & a true pirate would meet his end with a smile since he chose to live his life as he wanted, fully aware of what the consequences would be. 

Only a fool believes that they are above the consequences of their actions- So live your life as you see fit. Your only responsibility is to yourself. Know the consequences of your actions before you make them. If you are not willing to face those consequences, then do not take that action. All this life is a choice. LIVE IT! & if you have no way out, keep digging- Your only limitation is your imagination. I, for one, would rather choose death than let someone else bind me down & break me. I would fight tooth and nail, making any slaver's life hell before letting them bind me. I would never take my own life, but I would fight for my freedom relentlessly until they are forced to either release me or kill me. 

Death, in my eyes, is a far better sentence to enslavement. I'd rather die than live as another's slave. I've been there. I've been through hell. I know what it's like to live & suffer in fear for my life & safety. NEVER AGAIN will allow for such a thing to happen! Not to me, nor to anyone around me! I AM FREE! & NO ONE will ever take my freedom from me! PERIOD!

Some may try to twist my words or make me seem cold-hearted or cruel in saying these things.. but it is simply the truth of the matter. EVERYTHING is a choice. One can choose to simply let life happen to them, or they can choose to take hold of the reins and take control of where their life is going. One can choose whether or not to simply let things happen to them or to stand and fight against them in order to live their life in their own way. It's that simple-

Me..? I choose to live my dreams- & Nothing & no one can stop me!

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!

-Aria D Gaia

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Owari-

I haven't been on in a while... been feeling a bit lost and.. not really confused, but I guess.. reflective would be a good term for it. For the past month or so I have been viewing all my usual habits as nothing more than distractions. Watching anime & movies, surfing the web, chatting & posting to social media, even playing video games.. they all seem like nothing more than distractions to me. It all feels so FAKE- Mainly because that is EXACTLY what they are-

What is one doing when on social media..? or when playing video games..? or when watching something on some screen...? They're sitting on their arses doing nothing at all or pretending they're someone else in a different world! Sure- Such distractions are fun & enjoyable.. and if such moments are shared with others they can be truly memorable. However, such activities do nothing more than allow one to remain lazy & sit around doing nothing. They prevent one from truly living at all- Something that I have come to find more & more aggravating of late...

Before, when I posted to this blog, I always endeavored to be positive & only share the good things, sharing my progress, wanting to make a good impression.. I always hide behind a smile & positive words without sharing my innermost thoughts & feelings. I used to fear what others might think of me if they were to know of my darker tendencies.. of my demons... I feared how my words & actions might reflect badly on those whom I look up to, or on those who consider me a friend. Well- No longer! 

I no longer care whether or not what I post is accepted or viewed positively- I don't even know if people even read this thing! I no longer care if someone tries to use my words or posts against me- I stand by them proudly! If what I say is factually wrong, then by all means.. correct me by providing me with the facts- However, if anyone simply disagrees with what I write, I ask them to remember that my perspective & view on life is far different from many. I do not seek to judge others for their actions or the way they live their lives, for I know that everyone sees this world & life differently from myself. I'm just tired of hiding behind false pretenses & smiles when in my mind & heart I sometimes want to lash out at the world for its stupidity-

I even considered deleting this blog recently... However, a trusted friend of mine told me I should keep it. He told me that I should use it as a memoir, so that in the future I can come back to it when I go to write my life's story. He's been a wonderful advisor & has given me splendid counsel. I've shared with him some of my thoughts & my past and he told me that I should share my wisdom, knowledge, & life experiences with others. He explained that there are many out there who might benefit from my words & perspective. For this, I am grateful~ I am by no means perfect- Far from it, in fact! But what I do know is that this world.. our world.. & the way our "First World" society is... many people are suffering & countless are lost.. & if I can be but one small beacon of light for those who can still see, then that is what I shall be-

From now on, I will only post when the fancy strikes me- I won't just share my progress with Dream Ship, I will also share my innermost thoughts, feelings, & insights. If the number of silver hairs I now possess represent anything, then I guess I've got a great amount of wisdom to share. Some that know me, know me to be a bit of a philosopher... yet this is a part of me that I rarely share. No longer- I'm tired of hiding! I tired of the fear of being rejected! I tired of fearing that I might live the rest of this life alone as I have felt throughout most of my life! NO MORE! If the rest of the world is unable to accept me..? SO BE IT! I've stood up time & again over countless occasions in the past- No longer will I allow myself to fall. Never again will my knees hit the ground!

& if I must remain standing alone.... then I shall do so strongly & proud, knowing that my strength provides so many others with support! I have my friends now. I have my nakama- & they all depend on me for strength & reassurance. I refuse to let them down! Knowing that they are there gives me all the strength I need to continue standing tall. Though I may be alone in love.. though I may feel like crumbling to the ground in tears of agony from loneliness & longing... My nakama need me- I am not truly alone! & no matter what- I shall never allow myself to to even consider breaking down anymore!

I shall be that lone solid pillar of steel & stone. A beacon of light for the rest of the world. Others may not see it or they may not like it, but there are those that I know have come to depend on it. No longer will I sit back allowing myself to be distracted by this society's lazy indulgences- No longer will I sit daydreaming & wishing I could live an adventurous life like the characters in my favorite stories- From now on, I shall be focused on MY dream & actually LIVING it for a change, not just wishing for it! Never again shall I fear what consequences my actions & words my bring- I shall simply take responsibility for them & live as I please! No matter what this world may throw at me from now on- I shall stand proud & tall facing the waves as they crash around me!

No more Ms. Nice Girl- She is now gone!

Instead..? Get ready for what's real & raw- Aria D Gaia... bastion to the world.. & protector of souls..

I can help you if you feel lost- But only if you first wish to save yourself from it all.

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!

-Aria D Gaia

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Some things you should know..

As I open myself up to being available to others as a Life Coach, I feel it is important that I share with you some details about myself... because.. how can one really know that I will understand what they are going through if they know nothing about what I have been through myself?

I have not always been the bright, cheerful, & positive person I am today- If you had met me back in 2008 or before, you would have found a woman who was barely even a shadow of herself.. empty.. sad.. lost.. & utterly alone.. but who hide it so well that no one else ever even knew- I once honestly & completely, whole-heartedly believed that I never should have been born & was nothing but an unloved burden upon the whole world & those who knew me.. :'( I fit in with The Semi-Colon Project perfectly-

Hard to believe right? 

Well, I assure you.. it is true- I would never lie about something as heart-rending as this. The only thing I had going for me was my stubbornness & my unrelenting tenacity to prove everyone else wrong- No one ever believed in me before. Not even my own family. Not even myself! Ironic, right!? Stubborn as hell, yet I hardly even believed in myself at all. I eventually realized in college that I had a problem & that I probably needed some serious help, but I believed & feared that the docs would simply put me on drugs and wave me on; that they'd not listen nor care at all about me as a person.. So I never sought help and was determined to face my problems on my own-

I grew up with no one at all that I could lean on, no one who would help me, no one who showed me that they cared, & no one that I felt I could truly trust to be there when I needed them most.. So I was forced to learn how to stand on my own & brave the storms of life with my own strength & tenacity. It was not the least bit easy.. & there came a time when I was perilously close to giving up & calling it quits. One more bad storm & I'd have walked off the top of my dorm room building.. literally... just as another student had done a few years prior that I had all but witnessed in person as she had lived in my very same dorm..

It was on Feb 23rd, 2010 that I found my salvation- :) You see.. I knew that what I felt was wrong & that it wasn't how things were meant to be, so I desperately searched high & low for years for something.. ANYTHING!! ..that would give me just a touch bit more hope to make it through another day. Music was my greatest source of hope & helped me cope through so much heartache. Thus, I was constantly searching for new songs, new lyrics that would fill me with a sense of hope & peace, to help me cry when I knew I needed to, to help me vent when my anger was boiling over, & to help me to believe in the world & myself again. It was during one of these searching moments that I found my ultimate salvation~

It was completely random how it happened too! I was actually searching for Beyonce's song Halo, when a completely different song popped up labelled "Why did I fall in love with you? (Beyonce Halo Knock-off) by Tohoshinki"... I was floored...! I thought to myself.. "Tohoshinki? That's Japanese! I LOVE J-pop!", so I clicked on it out of curiosity. Immediately it filled me with joy & love, along with a sense of sadness & longing as it was a song about unrequited love, so I looked up the song on YouTube with English subs to have a better understanding of the lyrics.. & I laughed! Truly laughed! For the first time in what seemed like forever as I saw that Tohoshinki was literally an Asian version of The Backstreet Boys, my favorite teenage dream band when I was a teen. ^_^

Excited by my newfound interest, I looked up more of their music and the very next song I listened to was their song "Love in the Ice"........... & that was when my whole life changed.......... <3

The lyrics to that song were words I had been waiting my whole entire life to hear... Just a few lines into the song & I was bawling my eyes out.. The deep, penetrating, & cleansing kind of cry that I had be unable to accomplish on my own.. Even to this day, even in this very moment as I type, I still well up in fresh tears as I remember & relive that moment.... For 20 whole minutes I wept & wept until I could cry no longer.. and when I once again raised my head up from the table where I sat..? It was as if the entire world had changed in that one short instant-

All the pain, the sadness, the darkness, the chains & bars which had kept me imprisoned in my own personal hell..... it was all.. gone... Just... GONE! POOF! NADA! The world was suddenly bright, warm, welcoming, & so full of love! Both inside & out, my entire world had done a complete 180 degree turn. I became filled with light, hope, positivity, & passion! :D My self-confidence & self-belief soared to such great heights that I have yet to ever come down from the clouds~ & now here I am... just 6 years later~ Chasing my dreams & living the life I always knew was what I should be living! ^_^ But it wasn't really the song that saved me...

Over these past few years, I have come to realize that the song was really just that perfect trigger that I had needed in order to fire the already fully-loaded & bursting to the brim canon of my very own heart & soul. I had already packed my heart, mind, & soul so full of all the various thoughts & things I had needed in order to change myself & my life all those previous years beforehand when I had refused to give up... I had only been missing the trigger I had needed to fire it all off! Well- I can tell you... I am so very glad I found it. I never once expected to find it in the form of a song, but I did... & each person's trigger is different-

Be you a soul that merely needs help & advice to help you puzzle your way through accomplishing dreams you have already set in motion... Or someone who desperately needs another kindred spirit to have your back & give you that extra boost to climb up out of your own darkness... I've got your six- :)

All you need do is ask it~

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!

-Aria D Gaia

Monday, March 21, 2016

Official Crew Registry!

Dream Ship now has an official crew registry under our 'People~' tab where people may find information for each individual Dream Ship Crew! :D

If you are starting your own Dream Ship crew & wish to join our official registry, simply email me at D.S.SunnyFreedom@gmail.com with all the info listed at the end of the registry page & I will add you into the official registry. If you are sailing solo, that's fine! I can add you in as a solo crew ship~ :) There are no real requirements for becoming an official Dream Ship Crew other than your desire to Live Your Dreams & help create a better world for all by helping those that you can around you. No matter how you choose to help, every little bit of kindness helps make the world a better place. ^_^ 

Please let me know if you have decided to start your own crew & wish to join our registry! :D I look forward to having more people around the world listed as those willing to give a helping hand where they can~ :3

-Aria D Gaia

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!!

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Are you 'The One' for me?

This is a special post-- ;)
 
The one thing I have wanted most... has been the hardest thing for me to find..
 
& it still eludes me to this day............... & that is.. True Love~
 
It’s not for a lack of trying, for I’ve dated several different guys & have had many who have expressed interest in me. However, none of them felt “right”.. I’m not looking for Mr. Perfect- I’m simply looking for Mr. Just-Right-For-Me, who sees me as his Ms. Just-Right-For-Him. I’m searching for a feeling. A feeling in my heart that tells me, ‘Yes- He’s the one- Absolutely no doubt about it’. I’ve yet to find it.. :( & I’m tired of being alone...
 
So this is a shout out! I’m putting myself out there as ‘Available & Looking’~
 
If you are searching for a woman who is both sides of the Yin & Yang, who works hard, is building her very own life of freedom & adventure, wishes to sail around the world & help people, who longs to be a mother & have a child as soon as possible, who is a little eccentric, a bit of a dreamer, & incredibly unique, who loves Pixar & Dream Works, loves science & fantasy in equal measure, & loves trying new things, a woman who knows what she wants in life & goes after it, who has her own friends & wants you to have yours, who wishes to share in your life as much as you wish to share in hers, who is smart, dedicated, determined, creative, & cunning, who is passionate about everything she loves & does, who can be both warm & inviting while also knowing when to stand her ground, a woman who can do it all on her own, but who still wants you around.. then why not give me a try?
 
I warn you thou- I am a Tiger in every sense of the word. If I don’t like something, I will let you know it. If you don’t respect my feelings or me, I will slam the door in your face so fast you won’t know what happened. I do not tolerate disrespect, abuse, nor any kind of maliciousness or attempt at coercion. I can tell if you’re serious or ‘just kidding’. I am no fool- I trust my gut instincts & if you’re not ‘The One’, you are NOT ‘The One’- It is as simple as that. If I say so, then just be glad that you don’t have to waste anymore time nor effort on my account. Everyone has someone who is best for them & all I wish is for you & I to find them, whether it’s each other or someone else. If I feel you may be the one for me, I will let you know it & wish to get to know you further. Take caution thou- No matter how long we have been talking & getting to know each other, if I find something about you that makes me recoil in any kind of negative way, I will let you know it in an instant.
 
I am a hard person to get to know or get close to as I hardly ever trust anyone. I never let anyone get close to me unless I feel I can trust them, then I only let them in in small increments. If you are a serious Gentleman who is sick of all the games, who wants a serious woman who is honest & real in every way, if you take care of yourself, eat right, work out, & are looking to live a self-sufficient lifestyle, if you have dreams that also include sailing the world &/or having adventures, if you enjoy the nerd talk, geek talk, & serious contemplation of the universe, if you’d rather stay in & watch a movie or play D&D or even just read a book than go out & ‘party’ most nights, but sometimes want to go out & dance when the mood strikes, if you are open to new possibilities, wish to be a father, want to have a woman who is loving & passionate, & wish to share in life’s adventures together with a woman who is fiery, fierce, & a total gypsy... then maybe I’m the one you’re looking for-
 
I will NOT ‘hook-up’! I can’t stand a boy who is immature & lacks class- I refuse to be anyone’s ‘play-thing’- Only approach me if you are 100% serious about getting to know me ONLY!! I am looking for a man who wishes to be my best & truest friend- If you have no intentions of being my friend, then you’ve no place in my love life. I am looking for a life partner, not just some fling.. & ‘Life Partner’ to me doesn’t necessarily mean that we are always together & do everything together. It simply means we share in life’s adventures together, whether we are standing side-by-side or we’re oceans apart. I want my man to have his own dreams & aspirations, his own friends, & the determination, dedication, & intellect to see things through on his own; thou I will gladly help you out if asked. I want a man who wishes to be the father of my future child or children. If I haven’t found ‘The One’ by my 34th birthday in October 2018, then I am taking parental matters into my own hands & having a baby on my own with the help of an anonymous donor & doctors. This is how serious I am about my wish to be a mother. If you don’t like it, then you’ve no place in my love life either-
 
Be you a lonely mountain man, a wandering sailor, an honorable soldier, a bush man, a farmer, or even a man lost in a lab or stuck behind a computer.. if you are looking for a life-long partner who is both friend & lover, who yearns for a relationship built on honesty & trust, who wishes to change the world & fill it with love, dreams, & kindness.. then send me a message request & we’ll try getting to know each other~ :)

Worries are now gone! ^_^

I just heard back from the doc, all my other health worries are now gone! My only concern now is my heart- I have lived with this condition my whole life, so I think I can manage even without the 'much needed' medication that the doc says I should take. Who wants to take meds that artificially RAISES their blood pressure!? ESP when there are plenty of yummy foods & spices that do the very same thing naturally! I've opted for the natural route~ ;) I've always preferred natural methods over pharmaceutical drugs, so why change now? I'm 31 & I look 21, so I must be doing something right, eh! ^_^

Working hard now to get to Hawaii- It shant be long now! By Thanksgiving this year I shall be giving thanks to the heavens for my wonderful new home on the Big Island~ I'm working on designing my very own ultra-mini lightweight hobbit home trailer & will probably go with my latest K.I.S.S. Concept as I need to build it rather quickly while also building it to last with little funds. It's a darn good thing I'm a Jac-of-all-trades~ :3 Still researching building designs & DIY instructions online though to make sure I have considered everything.

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!!

-Aria D Gaia

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Hey you! :)

Long time, no post! :P

I've been super busy.. & sick! >_< But I'm slowly feeling better now. :) Been trying to get the hell out of here as soon as possible... but it seems that the world is conspiring against me & wants me to stay where I am until I've lived out the remainder of my lease here in Dunnellon, Fl.. :/ Oh well~ Hawaii's not going anywhere! I'll get there sooner than I think~ ;) My lease is up on Halloween, so I'm moving to Hawaii immediately afterwards- ^_^ I'm so totally excited! :D lol! This summer may be a rough one with the heat & humidity, but I look forward to it being my LAST here in Florida! <3

I've been working out multiple designs & concepts for my ultra-mini, ultra-lite hobbit home trailer that I wish to build and have gotten to the point of going with something simple. I call it my K.I.S.S. concept and it is so streamlined & simple that I can have the outer shell built within a single day if I wish. I have come to realize that I needed to do this in order to get myself a decent shelter asap. I can't afford to be camping out on my property. I can build my trailer shell on cement bricks at first until the welder is done building my custom trailer frame, then I can simply slide my home onto the frame after it's done. This will give me a month to find a car in which to tow my trailer to the DMV to have it registered. Or I can just rent a car to do so~

I wish to keep my motorcycle lifestyle- I'll only use the car when moving my home. I'm even considering an electric bike instead of a motorcycle to practically eliminate my carbon footprint! :) They have one now that goes 40 mph. I could install a solar panel on the back to help keep the battery charged at all times so I can use it any time I wish. I could build a tiny tow-trailer for the bike to carry groceries back to my house. I want a very simple, self-sufficient lifestyle~

More details to come! Stay tuned~ ;)

LIVE YOUR DREAMS!!

-Aria D Gaia