Thursday, June 21, 2018

Long Time, No Write~

Hello Everyone~

Capt. Gaia here~ It's been a long while since I last posted.. It's been hectic & very, VERY busy here in Hawai'i! I am now working two jobs, plus trying to start my own craft business. Also, Ginsai Law is here in Hawai'i helping out. He's the only remaining member of my crew that still wishes to build the ship & sail with me, thus he is now my 2nd in command. He is also working two jobs~ & since we only have one car... it's meant very little rest for us both; esp me since I'm the only one with a driver's license. 

Things are beginning to move forward more rapidly now. Ginsai has asked me to be his girlfriend... & since he's the bestest friend I have ever had, I figured he was worth the chance. So far things are good & we are handling the ups & downs of a relationship well. We've known each other for over 4 years now and have always communicated well; a must need to make any relationship last. Soon we will be building our first shared tiny home together~ He's 6'1" tall so he doesn't exactly fit in Mini Merry which is only 5'10" long..

Give us 3 months to save up the money and get the resources together for the build & then I will begin posting about the design and build process. If my calculations are correct, we should be able to build our shared tiny home for only $1,200, including the purchase of a brand new 6'x8' trailer as the base. This one will be made of solid white pine and have a thick varnish finish that allows the natural grain to show thru~ The design will be very similar to my design for the Mini Merry, only scaled up to the larger size of 6'x6'x8' with room enough for two adults and one infant/toddler; we both want to have a baby.

I was given a promotion at my new job at Walmart~ I have found upon returning to the company that I am treated better, paid better, & even have better benefits than I did at my gov't jobs working as a park/forest ranger, which is nice. I am slowly working my way up the ladder and hope to soon make CSS; Customer Service Supervisor. I love customer service & hate that it took me so long to figure it out. Now I can work more happily at a job that is less stressful and not so demanding.

I have also finally joined a martial art school; The Pacific Wing Chun Association. I've been attending classes for almost 2 months now. Despite the fact that the latest bout of eruptions from Kilauea have had me coughing & hacking from the vog causing me to miss 2 weeks of lessons, I am improving at a decent pace. I hope to soon test for my white shirt, which is similar to earning your first belt in Karate. By this time next year, my goal is to be a certified black shirt and have the ability to teach others Wing Chun as well.

Anyway~ I just wanted to drop a quick update before my Wing Chun lesson tonight. I hope everyone is well & having fun!


-Aria D Gaia

Tuesday, December 27, 2016


I feel like I've been down this road before... There's so much red-tape BS, paperwork, & fees associated with trying to startup a nonprofit. Not only that, you have to file like 4 different forms with the IRS, which is ridiculous in my eyes. Why did we have to make things so friggin' complicated? The thing I hate most is how much they emphasize how expensive it is to run a nonprofit. This monetary system we're stuck in is just plain infuriating. It REALLY prevents anyone from accomplishing anything worthwhile unless they're rich! Money has gone from a useful tool of trade to becoming a horrendous roadblock for anything good to be fruitful unless someone has a tremendous amount of money behind them. This needs to change-


-Aria D Gaia

Pre-quarterly surprise post~

OMGoodness!! I think I just figured out the answer to all my problems! I've been stressed out for weeks because my current gov't job is only a temp job and I'm out of a job come March.. I gotta stay gov't or non-profit in order to continue qualifying for the Federal Student Loan Forgiveness Program, right.. so I've been seriously stressed out because I am having a hard time finding such a job here in Hawai'i... But I think I've got the answer!

If I make Dream Ship a federally recognized non-profit organization, then I will be working for a non-profit AND being fulfilling my dreams at the same time!! :D Not only that, I'll be able to better represent my cause, begin accepting donations, & truly helping people in accomplishing their dreams as well! I'll be able to solve ALL my problems, get rid of ALL my stress, AND take a huge step forward in my dreams with Dream Ship!! KYAAA!!! I'm so excited!! Now it's time to research this and make it a reality~ ;)


-Aria D Gaia

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Quarterly Report~

Aloha everyone~ :)

So it's been almost 4 months since I've made my move to Hawai'i and I've been so extremely busy the entire time that this is the first chance I've had to write to y'all! XD Just a quick update on my current condition and progress.. I'm doing well~ I've managed to finance my very first new car EVER, a lovely Kia Soul in the color Mocha Latte. My seasonal position with the Hawai'i Volcanoes National Park is going well~ Unfortunately, they are unable to hire any full-time nor permanent employees, so March I'm out of a job. I'm hoping to get in with our non-profit organization HPPA, the Hawai'i Pacific Parks Association. Everyone there is so very nice and then I'll been working more in the field I wish to; a non-profit that helps & supports others, like our national parks. ;)

My one acre of property is absolutely GORGEOUS!! :D The front 20% of the acre is all fresh black lava rock, perfect for my potted garden & green house, while the later 80% is a young kipuka, Hawaiian for "pocket of life" that was not overrun by lava. My beautiful trees are all very young, less than 50yrs old, but they are all lovely. Most of my plants are native to Hawai'i, like Ohia Lehua, A'ali'i, Pukiawe, & Ohelo (Hawaiian Blueberry). I'm still learning Hawaiian, so please forgive me if I've misspelled anything.. :3 

Since I wish to keep my property as natural as possible, I have decided to build a small village of tiny homes on stilts for my crew & people who wish to visit me here~ That way I am able to take advantage of my lovely views without having to alter the natural landscape so much. :) So far I've got my shed just about finished; all the walls are up, roof & doors are on. All it needs is a few more coats of paint, asphalt cement on the roof, corner trim, some flooring treatment, & a gutter for collecting the rainwater that falls on it. My property is all off-grid agricultural living, so I have to collect my own water or tote it in, which is so much fun! :D Next to build is my micro mini home, only 4ft by 6ft, just big enough for a bed & a narrow desk. Then I'll get started on the first of the tiny homes on stilts. 

I've got three locations picked out in my yard that will be big enough to fit an 8ft by 8ft or 10ft by 10ft square platform on stilts without disturbing the native plant life. All are close enough to allow rope bridges to hang between them to connect them without sacrificing anyone's individual privacy. I've been working on some designs, using what I've learned through research & the construction of my shed in order to ensure ease of build, safety, & protection from the elements. The first one will be built just off of the higher level of barren black lava rock where I have decided to place my 'forbidden garden'~ ;) My micro mini home will be placed on sliders on a small platform within the 'forbidden garden' where it will be easy to pick it up and place it on a 4ft by 6ft trailer if there is ever a need to leave the property. 

I've been working hard on my days off from working at the park to build, paint, & secure my shed, as well as move and level the lava rock area by hand where I have decided to place my 'forbidden garden'. It's been super slow going, but it's been so satisfying and fun that most days I'm simply bubbly with excitement! ^_^ However, it has also been extremely draining and I have learned that I need to only work on the property one day so that I can give myself at least one day of rest & recovery during the week seeing as I have to work 5 days at the park. lol~ I've always been one to work myself to exhaustion... Time I started to take better care of myself. I just want so much to keep pushing forward and accomplishing my goals that I forget about my own health sometimes.. lol! :P 

Ah, well~ I'm learning~ ;) Things are looking up and my crew has been super supportive. They've even spread my hopes and dreams to others and found me more supporters! I can't believe how much positive attention and support I've been receiving from everyone, even total strangers~ Dream Ship started off as little more than a vague dream with me figuring that I'd been doing everything all on my own as I have always done... But now? Now I have people contacting me and asking me how they can help me make both Dream Ship & now my Dream Home a reality! :D LOL!! This is something so utterly new and unexpected to me that I have almost no idea what to say to them other than thank you~ :3 lol~ 

Guess I'm going to have get used to the fact that I can't keep hiding in the shadows accomplishing things quietly on my own.. The world seems bent & determined to shine the spotlight on me & bring out onto the world stage.. lol~ XD

Thanks everyone for the love & support!

-Aria D Gaia

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Going to Hawaii!! :D

Sorry it's been so long since my last post.. It's been hectic here. However, I have wonderful news!


KYAAAAAAAAA!!! \\(>o<)//

I'm to start there on September 4th- I'm leaving Dunnellon NEXT WEEK! I've been so busy trying to get ready, that it's been a bit crazy. Things are FINALLY coming together~ ^_^ I shall post more in the days to come! I just wanted to post a quick update since I haven't posted in so long. Take care ya'll! Thanks for all your support!


-Aria D Gaia

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Life is a Choice-

I firmly believe that everything that happens in life, all that you experience, everything you do.. is all a matter of choice. Right on down to your state of mind & how you feel. Everything is about perspective & one can choose which perspective they wish to have. This is why I have no patience for complainers & whiners. Whining & complaining does nothing to change the situation you are in and if you really didn't like it, you wouldn't stay there. Even including mental states.

Now I will admit that there are some things that you have absolutely no control over- One cannot choose their parents. One cannot choose their genetics. One cannot choose what others will do nor how the world will react to them. However, we CAN choose how we react to the world. We can choose whether or not to love our parents or to disown them. We can choose to alter our looks if we are not happy with the looks our genetics gave us. 

If you are not happy with something? Change it!
If you are not happy where you are? Leave!
If you are not happy with the way things are? Change them!


The only limitations you have is that of your own imagination & willingness to work towards your goal. Even a slave has a choice- They can choose to put up with it or they can choose to escape it. Even life & death are a choice. There is always a way to escape from any situation you may feel stuck in. You can always find a way out. Remaining where you are despite being unhappy is also a choice you make. To people who always complain but never do anything to change..? I say.. You chose to stay where you are. Stop bitching about it or do something to fix it. Your choice!

You know the old adage.. "You made your bed, now lie in it"~ I certainly believe this. We are never free of the consequences of our actions or choices we make. That is the only thing we cannot change. However, we can change how we feel about them and how we react to them. We can choose whether or not to let those consequences rule our lives or to accept them & rise above them. Even a pirate knows that the consequences of his actions are death if he gets caught.. & a true pirate would meet his end with a smile since he chose to live his life as he wanted, fully aware of what the consequences would be. 

Only a fool believes that they are above the consequences of their actions- So live your life as you see fit. Your only responsibility is to yourself. Know the consequences of your actions before you make them. If you are not willing to face those consequences, then do not take that action. All this life is a choice. LIVE IT! & if you have no way out, keep digging- Your only limitation is your imagination. I, for one, would rather choose death than let someone else bind me down & break me. I would fight tooth and nail, making any slaver's life hell before letting them bind me. I would never take my own life, but I would fight for my freedom relentlessly until they are forced to either release me or kill me. 

Death, in my eyes, is a far better sentence to enslavement. I'd rather die than live as another's slave. I've been there. I've been through hell. I know what it's like to live & suffer in fear for my life & safety. NEVER AGAIN will allow for such a thing to happen! Not to me, nor to anyone around me! I AM FREE! & NO ONE will ever take my freedom from me! PERIOD!

Some may try to twist my words or make me seem cold-hearted or cruel in saying these things.. but it is simply the truth of the matter. EVERYTHING is a choice. One can choose to simply let life happen to them, or they can choose to take hold of the reins and take control of where their life is going. One can choose whether or not to simply let things happen to them or to stand and fight against them in order to live their life in their own way. It's that simple-

Me..? I choose to live my dreams- & Nothing & no one can stop me!


-Aria D Gaia

Wednesday, June 1, 2016


I haven't been on in a while... been feeling a bit lost and.. not really confused, but I guess.. reflective would be a good term for it. For the past month or so I have been viewing all my usual habits as nothing more than distractions. Watching anime & movies, surfing the web, chatting & posting to social media, even playing video games.. they all seem like nothing more than distractions to me. It all feels so FAKE- Mainly because that is EXACTLY what they are-

What is one doing when on social media..? or when playing video games..? or when watching something on some screen...? They're sitting on their arses doing nothing at all or pretending they're someone else in a different world! Sure- Such distractions are fun & enjoyable.. and if such moments are shared with others they can be truly memorable. However, such activities do nothing more than allow one to remain lazy & sit around doing nothing. They prevent one from truly living at all- Something that I have come to find more & more aggravating of late...

Before, when I posted to this blog, I always endeavored to be positive & only share the good things, sharing my progress, wanting to make a good impression.. I always hide behind a smile & positive words without sharing my innermost thoughts & feelings. I used to fear what others might think of me if they were to know of my darker tendencies.. of my demons... I feared how my words & actions might reflect badly on those whom I look up to, or on those who consider me a friend. Well- No longer! 

I no longer care whether or not what I post is accepted or viewed positively- I don't even know if people even read this thing! I no longer care if someone tries to use my words or posts against me- I stand by them proudly! If what I say is factually wrong, then by all means.. correct me by providing me with the facts- However, if anyone simply disagrees with what I write, I ask them to remember that my perspective & view on life is far different from many. I do not seek to judge others for their actions or the way they live their lives, for I know that everyone sees this world & life differently from myself. I'm just tired of hiding behind false pretenses & smiles when in my mind & heart I sometimes want to lash out at the world for its stupidity-

I even considered deleting this blog recently... However, a trusted friend of mine told me I should keep it. He told me that I should use it as a memoir, so that in the future I can come back to it when I go to write my life's story. He's been a wonderful advisor & has given me splendid counsel. I've shared with him some of my thoughts & my past and he told me that I should share my wisdom, knowledge, & life experiences with others. He explained that there are many out there who might benefit from my words & perspective. For this, I am grateful~ I am by no means perfect- Far from it, in fact! But what I do know is that this world.. our world.. & the way our "First World" society is... many people are suffering & countless are lost.. & if I can be but one small beacon of light for those who can still see, then that is what I shall be-

From now on, I will only post when the fancy strikes me- I won't just share my progress with Dream Ship, I will also share my innermost thoughts, feelings, & insights. If the number of silver hairs I now possess represent anything, then I guess I've got a great amount of wisdom to share. Some that know me, know me to be a bit of a philosopher... yet this is a part of me that I rarely share. No longer- I'm tired of hiding! I tired of the fear of being rejected! I tired of fearing that I might live the rest of this life alone as I have felt throughout most of my life! NO MORE! If the rest of the world is unable to accept me..? SO BE IT! I've stood up time & again over countless occasions in the past- No longer will I allow myself to fall. Never again will my knees hit the ground!

& if I must remain standing alone.... then I shall do so strongly & proud, knowing that my strength provides so many others with support! I have my friends now. I have my nakama- & they all depend on me for strength & reassurance. I refuse to let them down! Knowing that they are there gives me all the strength I need to continue standing tall. Though I may be alone in love.. though I may feel like crumbling to the ground in tears of agony from loneliness & longing... My nakama need me- I am not truly alone! & no matter what- I shall never allow myself to to even consider breaking down anymore!

I shall be that lone solid pillar of steel & stone. A beacon of light for the rest of the world. Others may not see it or they may not like it, but there are those that I know have come to depend on it. No longer will I sit back allowing myself to be distracted by this society's lazy indulgences- No longer will I sit daydreaming & wishing I could live an adventurous life like the characters in my favorite stories- From now on, I shall be focused on MY dream & actually LIVING it for a change, not just wishing for it! Never again shall I fear what consequences my actions & words my bring- I shall simply take responsibility for them & live as I please! No matter what this world may throw at me from now on- I shall stand proud & tall facing the waves as they crash around me!

No more Ms. Nice Girl- She is now gone!

Instead..? Get ready for what's real & raw- Aria D Gaia... bastion to the world.. & protector of souls..

I can help you if you feel lost- But only if you first wish to save yourself from it all.


-Aria D Gaia

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Some things you should know..

As I open myself up to being available to others as a Life Coach, I feel it is important that I share with you some details about myself... because.. how can one really know that I will understand what they are going through if they know nothing about what I have been through myself?

I have not always been the bright, cheerful, & positive person I am today- If you had met me back in 2008 or before, you would have found a woman who was barely even a shadow of herself.. empty.. sad.. lost.. & utterly alone.. but who hide it so well that no one else ever even knew- I once honestly & completely, whole-heartedly believed that I never should have been born & was nothing but an unloved burden upon the whole world & those who knew me.. :'( I fit in with The Semi-Colon Project perfectly-

Hard to believe right? 

Well, I assure you.. it is true- I would never lie about something as heart-rending as this. The only thing I had going for me was my stubbornness & my unrelenting tenacity to prove everyone else wrong- No one ever believed in me before. Not even my own family. Not even myself! Ironic, right!? Stubborn as hell, yet I hardly even believed in myself at all. I eventually realized in college that I had a problem & that I probably needed some serious help, but I believed & feared that the docs would simply put me on drugs and wave me on; that they'd not listen nor care at all about me as a person.. So I never sought help and was determined to face my problems on my own-

I grew up with no one at all that I could lean on, no one who would help me, no one who showed me that they cared, & no one that I felt I could truly trust to be there when I needed them most.. So I was forced to learn how to stand on my own & brave the storms of life with my own strength & tenacity. It was not the least bit easy.. & there came a time when I was perilously close to giving up & calling it quits. One more bad storm & I'd have walked off the top of my dorm room building.. literally... just as another student had done a few years prior that I had all but witnessed in person as she had lived in my very same dorm..

It was on Feb 23rd, 2010 that I found my salvation- :) You see.. I knew that what I felt was wrong & that it wasn't how things were meant to be, so I desperately searched high & low for years for something.. ANYTHING!! ..that would give me just a touch bit more hope to make it through another day. Music was my greatest source of hope & helped me cope through so much heartache. Thus, I was constantly searching for new songs, new lyrics that would fill me with a sense of hope & peace, to help me cry when I knew I needed to, to help me vent when my anger was boiling over, & to help me to believe in the world & myself again. It was during one of these searching moments that I found my ultimate salvation~

It was completely random how it happened too! I was actually searching for Beyonce's song Halo, when a completely different song popped up labelled "Why did I fall in love with you? (Beyonce Halo Knock-off) by Tohoshinki"... I was floored...! I thought to myself.. "Tohoshinki? That's Japanese! I LOVE J-pop!", so I clicked on it out of curiosity. Immediately it filled me with joy & love, along with a sense of sadness & longing as it was a song about unrequited love, so I looked up the song on YouTube with English subs to have a better understanding of the lyrics.. & I laughed! Truly laughed! For the first time in what seemed like forever as I saw that Tohoshinki was literally an Asian version of The Backstreet Boys, my favorite teenage dream band when I was a teen. ^_^

Excited by my newfound interest, I looked up more of their music and the very next song I listened to was their song "Love in the Ice"........... & that was when my whole life changed.......... <3

The lyrics to that song were words I had been waiting my whole entire life to hear... Just a few lines into the song & I was bawling my eyes out.. The deep, penetrating, & cleansing kind of cry that I had be unable to accomplish on my own.. Even to this day, even in this very moment as I type, I still well up in fresh tears as I remember & relive that moment.... For 20 whole minutes I wept & wept until I could cry no longer.. and when I once again raised my head up from the table where I sat..? It was as if the entire world had changed in that one short instant-

All the pain, the sadness, the darkness, the chains & bars which had kept me imprisoned in my own personal hell..... it was all.. gone... Just... GONE! POOF! NADA! The world was suddenly bright, warm, welcoming, & so full of love! Both inside & out, my entire world had done a complete 180 degree turn. I became filled with light, hope, positivity, & passion! :D My self-confidence & self-belief soared to such great heights that I have yet to ever come down from the clouds~ & now here I am... just 6 years later~ Chasing my dreams & living the life I always knew was what I should be living! ^_^ But it wasn't really the song that saved me...

Over these past few years, I have come to realize that the song was really just that perfect trigger that I had needed in order to fire the already fully-loaded & bursting to the brim canon of my very own heart & soul. I had already packed my heart, mind, & soul so full of all the various thoughts & things I had needed in order to change myself & my life all those previous years beforehand when I had refused to give up... I had only been missing the trigger I had needed to fire it all off! Well- I can tell you... I am so very glad I found it. I never once expected to find it in the form of a song, but I did... & each person's trigger is different-

Be you a soul that merely needs help & advice to help you puzzle your way through accomplishing dreams you have already set in motion... Or someone who desperately needs another kindred spirit to have your back & give you that extra boost to climb up out of your own darkness... I've got your six- :)

All you need do is ask it~


-Aria D Gaia